Why is the journey to health like that? Is it just me? Are you really UP and ON IT or totally "meh" about it?
This is my life. I dislike it greatly. I know a person can't be HAPPY about being healthy all the time. Sometimes, the logistics and just thinking about it are irritating. This is life, right? The question is...how do you press on and press through when you feel like this?
No, I haven't gone off the deep end and been horrible or anything. I admit I haven't biked this week. And I NEED to. This may be part of my problem...but I'm drinking water and making good decisions. Not overeating. Not eating horribly fatty crap.
I just wish my mindset could always be firm. Could always be the "I CAN DO IT" attitude. I know it's not realistic to think like that...but it sure would be nice!!
I highly doubt I will have a loss this week. Unless some sort of weird miracle happens. ;) No ones fault but my own.
Gotta keep my eye on the prize. I can do this. Every healthy decision I make is a step in the right direction. This is a process...
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Friday, February 18, 2011
Goals Complete
Wow. That feels good!
I completed my goals this week! I exercised 3x (my minimum met - going to try and do Saturday too!) and I brought my lunch in 2x. Yay me.
Small steps, small steps.
I also saw a loss on the scale which was nice. I was HOPING to see 195.anything this morning...but alas, it was stuck at 196.0. Believe me, I got off/on multiple times (much to the Hubs amusement) trying to see 195...here's to 194 next week, right! Getting OUT of the 190's dang it!
Here's a fear...
I'm not going to make my mini-goal of 10 lbs lost by February 28. One week and three days to lose -3.6 lbs. (I think - I can't see my header right now...). I know it's POSSIBLE. But I know me, and I'm not sure it's PROBABLE. Gonna do the best I can to get there!
I feel weird today. Drugged almost. I'm not sure what THAT is about but it's annoying. I got up like a good lil' girl and biked this a.m. w/ Zac. Still not through that movie - but think one more sitting ought to do it! Afterward spent the morning feeling anxious, fighting a headache and feeling seriously lethargic. GO AWAY SICKIES GO AWAY! Or whatever the heck this is. We're having a huge weather change (low 50's in February is WEIRD here in the Great White North...) so maybe my allergies are all screwy?
I feel so old. Stupid aches and pains, meds, blah blah blah. Hoping as I become healthier and weight comes off these things won't effect me as much - if at all!
YAY for a healthy life!!
Now if I could only get rid of my freaking acne. What am I 15?! Proactiv...yeah, thanks for nothing.
Happy Friday!
I completed my goals this week! I exercised 3x (my minimum met - going to try and do Saturday too!) and I brought my lunch in 2x. Yay me.
Small steps, small steps.
I also saw a loss on the scale which was nice. I was HOPING to see 195.anything this morning...but alas, it was stuck at 196.0. Believe me, I got off/on multiple times (much to the Hubs amusement) trying to see 195...here's to 194 next week, right! Getting OUT of the 190's dang it!
Here's a fear...
I'm not going to make my mini-goal of 10 lbs lost by February 28. One week and three days to lose -3.6 lbs. (I think - I can't see my header right now...). I know it's POSSIBLE. But I know me, and I'm not sure it's PROBABLE. Gonna do the best I can to get there!
I feel weird today. Drugged almost. I'm not sure what THAT is about but it's annoying. I got up like a good lil' girl and biked this a.m. w/ Zac. Still not through that movie - but think one more sitting ought to do it! Afterward spent the morning feeling anxious, fighting a headache and feeling seriously lethargic. GO AWAY SICKIES GO AWAY! Or whatever the heck this is. We're having a huge weather change (low 50's in February is WEIRD here in the Great White North...) so maybe my allergies are all screwy?
I feel so old. Stupid aches and pains, meds, blah blah blah. Hoping as I become healthier and weight comes off these things won't effect me as much - if at all!
YAY for a healthy life!!
Now if I could only get rid of my freaking acne. What am I 15?! Proactiv...yeah, thanks for nothing.
Happy Friday!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Words
In a devotion I read recently...she talked about our words. We have the power of life and death through our words. It's a biblical truth.
Check it...
21 The tongue has the power of life and death,
and those who love it will eat its fruit.
Or the "down to earth" version I prefer...
21 Words kill, words give life;
they're either poison or fruit—you choose.
Wow. I think of all the times I doubt myself. And I speak it.
"I'll NEVER be thin!"
"I suck!"
"I'm a nutjob!"
"I can't get up on time!"
"I'll never accomplish this...or that..."
I'm poisoning my life. I have the power - through the Lord to do whatever I want to do.
To quote the Word again...
I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME.
Powerful. Insightful. Motivating!
I'm going to do this. One day at a time. One step at time. One decision at a time. One BITE at a time.
I will be healthy. There's so much more to life than wallowing in feelings of failure and defeat. I intend to start living fully.
Starting now.
Check it...
Proverbs 18:21 (New International Version, ©2010)
21 The tongue has the power of life and death,
and those who love it will eat its fruit.
Or the "down to earth" version I prefer...
Proverbs 18:21 (The Message)
21 Words kill, words give life;
they're either poison or fruit—you choose.
Wow. I think of all the times I doubt myself. And I speak it.
"I'll NEVER be thin!"
"I suck!"
"I'm a nutjob!"
"I can't get up on time!"
"I'll never accomplish this...or that..."
I'm poisoning my life. I have the power - through the Lord to do whatever I want to do.
To quote the Word again...
I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME.
Powerful. Insightful. Motivating!
I'm going to do this. One day at a time. One step at time. One decision at a time. One BITE at a time.
I will be healthy. There's so much more to life than wallowing in feelings of failure and defeat. I intend to start living fully.
Starting now.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Day Two of Biking
News Flash!
I've found I can't lose weight without exercise. Go figure. Anyway, I always thought I could "work it in" the day somehow. Working full time, then coming home to a 3 and 5 year old...making dinner, spending time with them, baths, etc...by the time 8 o'clock rolls around and they're in bed...I DO NOT wanna go downstairs and work out. I was fooling myself.
So...I asked the Hubs for help. Yes, I've asked for help in the past. A little bit about me...I well, um how do I say this...
I ADORE SLEEP. It's actually listed as a fave pasttime of mine. Bored? Sleep! Stressed? Sleep!
Getting up in the morning when the alarm first goes off...NOT IN MY NATURE. My nature? Hit snooze a gazillion times until I'm running late.
Geez, I'm on a bunny trail here...anyway the point is I asked Hubs to help get me up when he does (5:45-6 a.m.) to exercise.
He got REALLY quiet.
Then he finally responded...
"YOU HAVE ONE STRIKE"
Um, what? So he explains...
Honey, I have tried this in the past when you've asked. You snap at me. Or don't get up. I'm NOT doing it anymore...so...the first time you bite my head off...or lay there...I'm DONE! One strike. That's it.
Dang...okay then. If I want his help (and I do! I need accountability...) I have to get up.
I'm proud to say...today was day 2 of me getting up. I go right downstairs and ride my lil' bike while watching a movie.
My current pleasure?
Well played, Zac. Well played.
Hey, it keeps me moving, okay?
The scale is moving in the right direction too. ;)
Game on.
I've found I can't lose weight without exercise. Go figure. Anyway, I always thought I could "work it in" the day somehow. Working full time, then coming home to a 3 and 5 year old...making dinner, spending time with them, baths, etc...by the time 8 o'clock rolls around and they're in bed...I DO NOT wanna go downstairs and work out. I was fooling myself.
So...I asked the Hubs for help. Yes, I've asked for help in the past. A little bit about me...I well, um how do I say this...
I ADORE SLEEP. It's actually listed as a fave pasttime of mine. Bored? Sleep! Stressed? Sleep!
Getting up in the morning when the alarm first goes off...NOT IN MY NATURE. My nature? Hit snooze a gazillion times until I'm running late.
Geez, I'm on a bunny trail here...anyway the point is I asked Hubs to help get me up when he does (5:45-6 a.m.) to exercise.
He got REALLY quiet.
Then he finally responded...
"YOU HAVE ONE STRIKE"
Um, what? So he explains...
Honey, I have tried this in the past when you've asked. You snap at me. Or don't get up. I'm NOT doing it anymore...so...the first time you bite my head off...or lay there...I'm DONE! One strike. That's it.
Dang...okay then. If I want his help (and I do! I need accountability...) I have to get up.
I'm proud to say...today was day 2 of me getting up. I go right downstairs and ride my lil' bike while watching a movie.
My current pleasure?
Hey, it keeps me moving, okay?
The scale is moving in the right direction too. ;)
Game on.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Fruits of the Spirit
I blog at work...and work has been BUSY! So...I'm taking a moment to blog. I need to keep doing this, journal my thoughts and feelings and work through them.
I have been thinking a lot about the fruit of the Spirit lately. The one that jumps out at me is SELF-CONTROL. I should be exhibiting these characteristics as a child of God. I see my need for the self control. I see how all areas of my life have "holes" or "failures" due to lack of self control. I've been praying the last few days for the Lord to help me in this...I know He can...but I have to do MY part too. I have to work hard.
Eating is going well. I have been making good decisions and drinking lots of water. What I haven't been doing is BIKING. I NEED TO BE BIKING. Exercise makes me stronger and just over all FEEL BETTER! :) Why would I slack off on that!??
So...I'm making a mini-goal for myself to push myself through the end of this month. I have to be down 10 lbs. for the year by Monday, February 28. That's 2.5 weeks and 4ish pounds.
With self control...and wisdom...I can do this. Gotta move on to some new ground and quit screwing around with the 190's.
I have been thinking a lot about the fruit of the Spirit lately. The one that jumps out at me is SELF-CONTROL. I should be exhibiting these characteristics as a child of God. I see my need for the self control. I see how all areas of my life have "holes" or "failures" due to lack of self control. I've been praying the last few days for the Lord to help me in this...I know He can...but I have to do MY part too. I have to work hard.
Eating is going well. I have been making good decisions and drinking lots of water. What I haven't been doing is BIKING. I NEED TO BE BIKING. Exercise makes me stronger and just over all FEEL BETTER! :) Why would I slack off on that!??
So...I'm making a mini-goal for myself to push myself through the end of this month. I have to be down 10 lbs. for the year by Monday, February 28. That's 2.5 weeks and 4ish pounds.
With self control...and wisdom...I can do this. Gotta move on to some new ground and quit screwing around with the 190's.
Monday, February 7, 2011
I will survive.
I'm here! I had a Thursday weigh-in last week with a teensy loss. 196.8. Better than a gain...but I definitely didn't do what I COULD have all week.
My son had to have surgery on Friday - he's five - so that was stressful. I had anxiety attacks on and off all that week trying to make it through. Through the grace of God and loads of prayers I did wonderfully and could be strong for him on Friday. Thank you Lord for that! :)
He's perfectly fine now...but I must say my eating was OFF this past weekend. I maybe had 2 glasses of water all weekend and I definitely feel it. I feel more bloated, and THIRSTY. When yesterday I realized what my problem was and started drinking water...it tasted SO good! Why do I deprive myself like that when at home? Things to work on ... for sure!
This week is a new week. I need to kick butt this week and get a 2 lb. loss.
I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!
My son had to have surgery on Friday - he's five - so that was stressful. I had anxiety attacks on and off all that week trying to make it through. Through the grace of God and loads of prayers I did wonderfully and could be strong for him on Friday. Thank you Lord for that! :)
He's perfectly fine now...but I must say my eating was OFF this past weekend. I maybe had 2 glasses of water all weekend and I definitely feel it. I feel more bloated, and THIRSTY. When yesterday I realized what my problem was and started drinking water...it tasted SO good! Why do I deprive myself like that when at home? Things to work on ... for sure!
This week is a new week. I need to kick butt this week and get a 2 lb. loss.
I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
No more water
Icky poo. I'm not feeling the "water" thing today. Yes, I am still drinking it...got 64 ozs. down so far. Sometimes a girl just wants an icy Coke, you know?
Did well last night. I rode my bike for 30 minutes. I needed some encouragment but Jen brought me through. Yay for that small feat. I also started journaling my food again yesterday. I ended up at a higher caloric intake than I thought (1590)...so I'm sure this is why my losses aren't coming. It feels like I'm eating less, but when you add it up...I'm still racking more calories than I should in a day. So...this will hopefully help me to be better about choosing food wisely.
I did have a mini-fail today. I woke up late (no fault but my own...) so I had to don the dreaded baseball cap and ran into work w/ no makeup. Let me just tell you right now...that is NOT a pretty sight. I did however, get my makeup on fairly quickly after I got here...
Onward we go.
Did well last night. I rode my bike for 30 minutes. I needed some encouragment but Jen brought me through. Yay for that small feat. I also started journaling my food again yesterday. I ended up at a higher caloric intake than I thought (1590)...so I'm sure this is why my losses aren't coming. It feels like I'm eating less, but when you add it up...I'm still racking more calories than I should in a day. So...this will hopefully help me to be better about choosing food wisely.
I did have a mini-fail today. I woke up late (no fault but my own...) so I had to don the dreaded baseball cap and ran into work w/ no makeup. Let me just tell you right now...that is NOT a pretty sight. I did however, get my makeup on fairly quickly after I got here...
Onward we go.
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